My life in ruins


I'm one of those silly people that ''live'' at a place, but still need a friend to take them around to actually explore it and show me some hidden gems.


It was no different this time, when a friend shortly visited and showed me these majestic ruins of Saint Dunstan in the East Church, located right in the City of London, that I probably passed numerous times without knowing what's actually there.


Still, London was always a bit of specially special place to me. Being younger, I visited it many times as I have relatives living here, for few magical weeks, during which I was basically treated like a princess, taken around and living the high and exciting life.


When I firstly moved here on my own, about two years ago, hype wasn't destroyed right away. Despite not being under the safe wings of people I knew my whole life, I was set on adventure of my own. I found myself a bunch of friends among people staying at the same place, and after a week or two of planing to find a job and more permanent spot to live, I was once again caught in a vertigo of adventures, careless days and nights out. As I still didn't have to pay for my accommodation and mostly also not for food (going on ''first dates'' with numerous people turned out to be especially handy on this part), I had more then enough resources (or well, savings), to continue living like if there's no tomorrow. And to be honest, that's how my life at that moment mostly felt like. No plans, no hopes, no future, I was in ruins just as well, but it wasn't any less beautiful.


Fast forward to about 6 months later. I gave up my negligent lifestyle, moved away for the summer, had job, survived, crossed Europe from one side to another, and by the time most of my belongings started to fall apart, (but I was not,) found myself on a long bus ride, all the way from the west of France, trough Paris, trough the channel tunnel and back to London.
Let me admit, that beside learning numerous languages in my life, including Chinese, I'm not really fluent in much more then English, so that's also one of the reasons UK always seemed as a safe place to be.


This time I actually took it serious. I kinda gave up on friends (most of which left anyway), and started looking for a job right away. It still took time, more than a month to be honest, and then some additional weeks to find something I actually liked. I went on and found myself an internship. And even further, a training... in another country! And this is when things started falling apart once more. Because after one, you can always find another training, in another country, and another... My job didn't required me to be there 5 days a week, unless when I wanted. My internship could be done from home (or elsewhere), until one lazy night in Cyprus I received an email that they're letting me go. My home turned into a suitcase, the one of a size you can store under the seat in front of you.
I probably spent most of my year sleeping in hotels or hostels rather then in my own bed, and for most nights that I didn't, I slept on improvised bed on the floor.


But even though I sometimes didn't have idea where I'd be even a week from that moment, the biggest difference, that I could never found in all the security and stability, was that I was happy. Like sincerely happy.


And if last year for my birthday I wrote I could never believe that such feeling and state of mind are possible if you'd tell me about them just 24 months before, this year I'm still living the life I could never even dreamed of. And perhaps it's much better then all my craziest dreams and hopes ever were.


The craze certainly continues, I briefly left London to visit Czech republic, and instead of taking my booked flight back from Prague, I somehow just moved to another country, the one I'd probably not really thought of.


I'm in ''middle of nowhere'', I'm happy, I have no idea what would happen after summer is over, but I certainly believe adventures would continue. Since there's still so many places to visit and things to experience. And real life can wait. Or not. Maybe for somebody else, cos it's obviously not for me.


   



Comments

  1. Che scatti stupendi... sei davvero bellissima

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  2. Looks like such a beautiful place! Have a great week.

    Gemma x
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  3. Thank you for sharing your journey! I love this dress on you.

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  4. That places looks out of this world! Perfect setting for your beautiful outfit, you look fantastic!

    Lindifique

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  5. You have a beautiful life. I can tell :)

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  6. Thanks for sharing darling, loving your pretty dress!


    xoxo
    Lovely
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  7. Wow! What an adventure and what a brave young woman! I love that you chose ruins - which doesn't look very ruined as it's such an amazingly beautiful setting - for a story about your life (so far), which also doesn't seem much like ruins. That dress looks just beautiful on you. Best wishes for your continuing adventure and may you find many more surprises in your journey!

    Ruth
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  8. Your pics are so beautiful! Such a stunning and dreamy place, the pics turned out gorgeos. And your looks are so pretty dear!

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  9. Wow you certainly have had your adventures and your ups and downs. I guess you need to find yourself. But be careful life has a way of sneaking up on you, and women are on a different timeline then men. LOVE the photos!

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  10. Thank you for sharing this story- I love that you're so happy + in a good place!

    -Ashley
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  11. thanks, dear!

    fantastic post!

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  12. What an interesting journey! Thanks for sharing it with us :)

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  13. What an adventure . Enjoy your summer, gorgeous. And the these pictures are beautiful.

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  14. Amazing place to visit and... lovely dress!
    Kisses, Paola.

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  15. This place is amazing.
    Lovely dress.
    Kisses!

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  16. It seems you have found your favorite place. So lucky you are. I also need some place where I can click some pictures without any disturbance but unfortunately I haven't found it yet. You are looking absolutely pretty even in every picture.
    Have a lovely day beautiful.
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  17. I follow you on gfc 34 :) follow back?

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  18. so stunning pictures- London has a special place in my life either- love this city I lived there for almost 5 years

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  19. What a beautiful spot! I must admit that I often find something endearing about ruins, especially those of a newer kind. Abandoned buildings fascinate me. The ruins of Saint Dunstan church look so beautiful. I can imagine how majestic this church must have looked at its time...but it still looks amazing. Ruins have a nostalgic kind of beauty to them. Your outfit is very pretty. That dress looks very romantic and I like both jackets you pair it with, the fur one is so glam.

    I do like your approach to life. What matter is that you're happy. Today's professional world is extremely unpredictable, there are no more safe jobs, we all have to improvise in order to survive, I think....and nobody can tell us what the right thing to do is in the professional sense. There are so many changes....and if you have it in you to live a life of adventure, why not? Go for it.

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  20. Oh, you can be so so proud on what you have achieved and it speaks absolutely in your favour that you are so reflected and honest! Sometimes a bus trip can be really important ... Congratulations you are happy - this is only your personal achievement. And regarding place in my home area: you are not alone - sometimes I also discover something new what I normally really should have known :) Wonderful pictures and look!
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  21. London is so special I lived there and never knew these ruins existed what a fantastic site to visit Love your images so beautiful and I totally understand you I also moved to London with so many uncertainties and so many stumbles and yet I would do it all over again take care and be happy Great post xoxo Cris

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  22. Love your pics and your outfit ♥
    That place really looks amazing.

    Ann
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  23. These are such lovely photos! The location matches really well with your outfit!

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  24. What a beautiful spot! you've got some great photos - and it doesn't sound like your life has been in ruins at any time - it sounds so exciting and adventurous! Enjoy it! :)

    Hope that you had a wonderful weekend :)

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  25. From this post I can tell that you're a really brave person and your life is definitely an adventure. Here's to hoping that the rest of the months are amazing for you. Also, your pictures are amazing and your dress looks lovely on you!

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  26. I definitely enjoyed every bit of it and I have you bookmarked to see new information on your blog. Greetingsmag

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