A walk trough the haze

 Last month has been a haze. A blur. An intriguing mix of expectations.

The first four days after "the fall" have been especially blurred out ones, but yet somehow also the best. Throughout the roller-coaster of emotions starting with disappointment and anger, all over the confusion and hate, enhanced with some sadness, remorse and regret, came the feeling of genuine numbness and ignorance that was in a way so liberating and gave freedom to spend them the way they were. Of course with some help of substances to console.

I guess that was the reminder of the greatness of simplicity, of how little we need to feel happy. It was standing in the eye of the hurricane and finding that moment of peace before the battle, the last calm before the storm.

And what a battle it was. Taking Sun Tzu's "The art of war" made so many moments incredibly relatable. So many attack techniques used, so many strategies to be planned. Standing alone in the greatest crowd, knowing nobody can trust nobody while you had no choice but to rely on everyone. Gathering information from all sources, making sure you know the most while you knew nothing at all. Cementing the position of acknowledging who's the ally and who's the enemy, while enemies still wanted you as an ally and allies could betray you at any time.

Choosing your soldiers wisely, positioning yourself in a way from which you could orchestrate the battle but barely have to fight. Taking the hits while others were giving the punches. And that final moment when hearing that someone changed their mind sounded like a proclamation that the war has ended.

Once more was proven the difference between the paid army and the one that fights for its believes. And you chose your soldiers well, they believed in you.

Last month has been a haze. You might have not got out of it unbruised, but whatever awaits you once the skies clear up, you'll walk away unscarred.

Dress from Marié Zelie



  1. What a cute floral dress! Sounds like such a tough month too, glad you made it through! :)

    Hope you're having a great week :)

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  2. Beautiful dress and engaging photos. Your blog is intriguing!

  3. I hope you are doing OK, you look great and the photos are so fun and look so editorial. Great dress and scarf!

    Allie of

  4. I hope you are doing OK - sounds like a tough month. On another note, you look gorgeous and I love this floral dress.
    Julia x

  5. Stunning photos. Love the broody floral dress and your writing made me pause and ponder. Ohh and the purple is scarf is such a mood :) xoxo

  6. Beautiful dress and photos! Sounds like last month was a challenging one, but one of growth as well! Hope that this month will be better!

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  7. Beautiful photos!
    Have a wonderful week,

  8. Love your outfit! The florals look very elegant and great for different types of occasions. I totally get you about how we need little to be happy. Thanks for sharing!

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  9. Your purple shawl and skirt match up really nicely, with its own style and beauty.
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  10. Beautiful writing. The floral dress suits you so well. Gorgeous photography. You pose like a pro.
    I loved reading The Art of War.

  11. Hello,

    First of all thanks for your lovely message in the blog! This is such a magical outfit and I imagine your mood goes a little bit up after this strange month, there's a lesson after every experience and you needed to celebrate with this lovely dress, full of happiness and power!


  12. Such gorgeous photos!!!
    And such well writing post, everything feels very cool and amotional!

  13. What a lovely set of images and style. Lovely to read your thoughts and I hope this week and month is much better.

  14. Hope you are doing okay! Beautiful dress xx


  15. I love your poetic prose describing the last month.
    The vibrant floral print on that dress from Marie Zelie is beautiful.
    You look fabulous wearing it in the lovely outfit photos above that Eleanora C. Collini took of you wearing it.

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  16. What a beautiful dress, I love it ♥

  17. Your dress is so beautiful and you look amazing.


  18. Hi
    First of all I loved the photos, they are amazing!
    Second, the text perfectly matches the mood of the photos, it was a difficult month but it is in the difficulties that we can see all our strength, I wish you a much better next month!


  19. So beautiful dress and amazing photos!



  20. I hope you're doing okay! I love the photos you've shared in this post.

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